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  "I'll beg you now if you want me to." I murmured, knowing she'd love hearing that. Her teeth grazed my neck which sent shivers through my body. She was good at her craft. I grabbed her hands and disappeared upstairs into a room with her.

  After some awesome reverse cowgirl action I came back downstairs and headed for the keg. Every blonde head I saw made me think of Claire. This shit was getting old fast. It was time to numb myself with alcohol because clearly banging her out of my system wasn't working.

  I was halfway through my fifth cup when the girl of my dreams, and nightmares, approached me. "Hello, sir!" She grabbed my free hand and pulled me away from my precious keg, I looked at it dreamily over my shoulder as I was pulled towards the mesh of bodies dancing in the living room.

  I still held my red solo cup in my hand and took a sip. I felt the bass pounding through my body and my eyes dropped to Claire's ass. Fuck me. Who knew jeans could be so fucking sexy? My eyes stopped bugging just in time. She turned to me and started dancing. My eyes dropped to her chest, my dream girl was wearing a black tank top with a white bra, the white bra is what really captured my attention. Why did she have to rub the pureness in my face like that?

  I watched, moving along with her, as her breasts teased me, screaming at me that they'd never be felt by my hands. It was not nice, not one bit. Fuck it. My free hand grabbed onto her hip, pulling her in against me so she could undulate against me and while she was in a good mood and I had the excuse of too much alcohol I moved my hand up her side and swiped my thumb over the bottom of her beautifully round breast.

  She laughed and pushed my hand back down to her hip. I growled at her. She pressed her chest against me and my breath caught in my throat. Heaven, I was in heaven. "Why is Justice giving me the stink eye?!" She yelled into my ear. I felt her pulling away so I put my hand on her back and held her close and nibbled on her earlobe. I felt her body shiver in my arms and I growled again, I wanted her. Bad. This was no good at all.

  "She wants to have another go at me. I'll see you later, Claire." I pushed her away firmly and walked away. My jeans were getting tight and my heart was pounding louder than the music. I found Justice and grabbed her hand roughly, pulling her towards the stairs again. I was going to get Claire out of my mind, even if it took all fucking night.

  Chapter 3

  Claire

  I watched Neil go up the stairs with Justice in tow and for a split second I was jealous. I wondered what it would be like once it finally happened. I found Merit by the speakers and grabbed her arm when I closed the distance between us. "Hey girl! I didn't think you'd show."

  She grinned, "Are you kidding? I love loud, crowded frat parties." She was being sarcastic, of course. "I just need a boy to make out with and I thought I could surely get one here. Is there a sign-up sheet somewhere?" I laughed at her and rolled my eyes.

  "You're terrible. Come on, lets get something to drink." I pulled her through the throng of people to the kitchen. I reached for a cup at the same moment that a large warm hand did. I looked up and nearly wet my panties. It was him. He looked so out of place, at least a head above everyone else here.

  Merit elbowed me in the ribs and I started and glanced between them. "Will! This is my friend, Merit!" He leaned down, bringing his gorgeous face next to mine. His smell surrounded my senses, he smelled like leather, nutmeg and soap.

  I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply as he yelled back into my ear. "What did you say?!"

  My eyes opened wide at the volume and I turned my lips to his ear, "I said 'This is my friend, Merit!'"

  He stood up and nodded to me and then to her, flashing her his beautiful smile. Oh geez, he was trying to kill me. I grabbed the front of his shirt, thanks alcohol for making me brave, and asked him to dance with us. He nodded again. I smiled, filled three cups and then drug them both out onto the dance floor. It was a Will sandwich with Merit wiggling against his left leg and me wiggling against his right. He stood behind us and didn't seem to know what to do. I grinned at Merit who grinned back at me.

  I grabbed Will's hand and put it on Merit's hip and then I danced my way to his backside. I put my free hand on his stomach and took a drink to calm my nerves and keep myself from fainting. His tight perfect ass was right there in front of me. As I pressed myself against him my breasts pressed against his lower back. He seemed to be into the song and when Bob Marley's Is This Love blasted from the speakers, I came back around to the front of him. He smiled at both of us and pulled us in close to his killer body.

  I looked to Merit and she was smiling at me and then at Will, I knew she saw what I saw, he was a total babe and not a total douche bag like the rest of the still single college guys seemed to be. He wasn't trying to feel us up, he wasn't waggling his brows like a dog with a bone - he was just enjoying the music and the company. When the chorus came on I turned to Merit and touched her nose and serenaded her. Luckily the music was loud enough to drown out my horrible singing. I was feeling a little tipsy though so I wouldn't have cared either way.

  The next morning I woke up with a bit of a headache. I was so smashed last night that I didn't even remember coming home. I stretched out and winced at the soreness in my feet. Damn high heels. They looked good but were so painful. It would be worth it if Will noticed my long legs. I smiled to myself and rolled out of bed. My feet stepped on something lumpy and large on my floor and I squealed. I looked down and saw Will on my floor and my heart melted. He was still sleeping soundly despite my big feet squishing his chest. He must have taken me home last night after I drank half the keg. I took the opportunity to stare at him. His black hair was messy in a sleep-mused way. His hands were resting on top of his large chest, which moved up and down deeply and rhythmically.

  Merit peeked her head up from the other side of my bed and I let out another squeal, hand on my chest. "Oh my gosh, Merit! What are you doing here?" I whispered loudly so I wouldn't wake up Will.

  "Me and your lover boy brought you back, mostly him, I just showed him where you lived and got us in here." She was still grinning at me like I was drunk dancing on a bar.

  I sighed softly and rubbed my pulsing forehead, "I appreciate that. I guess I had a little too much to drink, huh?"

  She chuckled, "That's an understatement. Do you want me to leave you two alone?" I glanced at Will still sleeping on my floor and shook my head.

  "As much as I would love that I don't want to freak him out. Let's leave a note and go get breakfast for him." Merit shrugged her slender shoulders as she went to the bathroom. After we both freshened up and I set a note on the bathroom sink, we left.

  When we came back he was gone, he'd written his own note: Ladies, Thanks for the fun night. Hope I didn't snore as loud as Claire. Hope to do it again soon. – W

  Chapter 4

  Neil

  I was sweaty from hitting it hard on the field, still trying to get my aggression out. My teammates thought I was pissed at something because they knew I was still banging any girl on two legs that showed interest, especially Justice who, for reasons I didn't care to know, was very interested in me lately. I had a feeling she wanted something more than a casual relationship but she knew I didn't do that. I'd told her that since the beginning, before I felt the pull of her magical eyes.

  I was ready to get a shower and was headed for the locker room with the rest of the jocks but the angel was standing against the wall, dressed in a pair of white jeans and a baby blue button down shirt. Those jeans hugged her legs tight and I swallowed hard thinking about how nice it would be to sink my teeth into those white creamy thighs. I put my charming smile on as I got closer, hoping she didn't notice me undressing her with my eyes.

  She didn't seem to notice. She smiled at me as sweet as ever. "Hey Neil, I know you just finished with practice I was wondering if we could talk...I need some help with something and I couldn't think of another guy I could ask..." She looked nervous, it was cute as hell.

  I stepped closer, unable to help myself, I put my ha
nd on the wall beside her head, and crowded her. I was close enough to smell her sweet scent but I wanted closer. I leaned down until my lips brushed her earlobe, "What kind of help do you need, Claire?" I felt her shudder and my pants started to tighten. She was so sweet and innocent. I loved that I could make her react with just a few whispers in her ear. She laughed nervously and pushed me back, I let her. I wasn't one to force myself on a girl. I had never needed to.

  "I just need to ask you some questions. Can you meet me for lunch?" Her cheeks were flushed, I wanted to rip her shirt off and make her blush more. I squeezed my hands tightly at my sides and smiled at her.

  "Sure, Claire. I'll meet you at the café in twenty." I winked at her and then left her standing there staring after me. I'm pretty sure she was checking out my ass. It made me smile.

  I sat down across from Claire, setting my lunch in front of me. I took in her tense body and hid my grin. Whatever she wanted it was about sex, no doubt about it. I started to unwrap my sandwich as I waited for her to speak first. She cleared her throat and my eyes went to her face, her plump lips curling into a soft smile.

  "So... there is this guy that I like, and lets just say that this guy was you, how would you want a girl to approach you?" I had just taken a bite of my sandwich and wish I hadn't. Claire was dating now? This was news.

  "Like for sex?" I grinned as she coughed on her iced tea. She wasn't ready for dating. She was still a wee baby girl.

  "No...not for sex. More for like...a date?"

  I kept quiet for a minute, finishing what was in my mouth before going on. My mortal mother taught me well. "Well, I don't know what kind of guy you're going after, the tool should man up and ask you out himself but,... if a girl wanted to get my attention she could do a number of things. She could ask me for help with something." I winked at her and she blushed.

  She sighed softly and sipped her iced tea. "Alright, I get it. Never mind. I'll figure that out by myself." She smiled sweetly in my direction and my eyes narrowed a little, becoming suspicious. "In your experience is it better if the girl takes control or if she lets you do whatever you want to her?"

  If she thought that question was going to shock me she was going to be disappointed. If she thought that question was going to cause a stir in my pants, she would've been dead on. I shrugged and sat back, my hands slid under the table to re-adjust. "I'm not sure either is better. Having sex is a give and take, love."

  "The best sex of your life, were you in control or was she?" She pressed her lips together and held her breath as she waited for my answer.

  "I was." I laughed remembering a particularly hot romp in the girl's locker room senior year.

  "Its hard to be better than Neil Begley." She rolled her eyes as she said it, joking.

  "Damn straight," I said, the seriousness was there.

  We finished our lunch, we laughed a lot. I had missed the time I used to spend with Claire at the high school lunch table. When we finally had to part ways I hesitated and as I watched her walk away my mouth grew dry and I couldn't wait for the next time she would come asking for advice.

  Chapter 5

  Claire

  Determined to get Will to say yes I put on my most flattering outfit, the skinny jeans hugged my curves and the white three quarter sleeve v-neck would give Will just a peek at my goods. I popped my lip glossed lips and headed out to find Will, I was sure he'd be in the dining hall, he was a big guy and liked to eat.

  I entered the dining hall and looked around for him. I can do this, I can do this. What if he hates the color white? What if another girl has already asked him out? What if he asked out another girl?? I shook the thoughts out of my head as I spotted him and forced my boots to walk towards him. I sat across from him at his table, his nose was buried in a book and he had earbuds in his ears. I smiled and gently pushed his book down. He looked like he was going to rip me a new one, his eyebrows tightly knit together but when he saw it was me they fell back and he smiled. I pressed my knees together, his smile was so dreamy. He could melt glaciers with it.

  "Claire. To what do I owe the pleasure?" His ice blue eyes dipped to the v of my v-neck and I mentally high-fived myself. My man trap was working so far.

  "I was going to go see a movie tonight but Merit bailed on me last minute. I was wondering if you wanted to come with me." My feet under the table were pointed at each other as I anxiously awaited his response.

  "Sure. Meet me at my dorm?" I nodded my agreement and let my finger slip slowly from the crack of his book. His ice blue eyes were focused on my finger and I inwardly high-fived myself again. Unless he thought I was being weird. We would find out soon enough.

  "The movie starts at eight so I'll meet you outside around seven forty-five." I stood up, winked at him and then walked away, trying not to go too quickly. I glanced back to see if he was watching and he surely was. And licking his lips, that was surely a positive.

  I met him at his dorm and we walked to the movie theater on campus. They were showing the 80's classic E.T. Will watched the big screen as if he'd never seen anything so interesting. His attention was solely on the movie despite my attempts to distract him by digging into the popcorn bowl that was on his lap. His aura didn't change from the orange he'd settled into.

  When the movie ended we walked back to his dorm, each of us not touching the other. I kept looking at him as we walked, hoping against hope that he'd made a move and that his aura would show something, anything other than the blue which spoke to how relaxed he was. He didn't look my way or reach out to touch me. As I stepped closer to him I watched as he stepped away, keeping the distance between us. We made small talk about the movie on the way and when we arrived I had it in my mind that he wasn't interested.

  "Do you want to come in and kiss or something?" His deep voice and innocent puppy-dog eyes didn't seem to go together, I was sure I'd imagined him saying it. I stared at him dumbly for a few long seconds before nodding my head. His aura was still blue.

  "Oh yeah...sure..." I smiled and stepped into the dorm when he held the door open for me. We both had popcorn breath so that was a positive, right? At least we didn't eat garlic, that always makes your breath smell bad. Oh my gosh...my first kiss. My first ever kiss and I was going to have it with Will.

  When we got to his room he unlocked the door and stepped in before me. I looked around after stepping in and saw lots of books on his side of the double room. He clicked off his computer screen quickly as he walked around, trying to tidy up a little. I grinned to myself. He'd been looking at first date tips on his computer before we went out, how adorable.

  I sat down on the bed after he pulled the comforter over it and nodded to the other side of the room which was very tidy but had a clear music loving vibe with artist posters and rows and rows of CDs. "Who is your roommate?"

  "Tse." He said gruffly as he sat down next to me. I leaned towards him, my arm warming against his warm, firm arm. His scent was so nice and flooded my insides. He looked down at me and a slow smile crept over his lips. "Do you know him?"

  I nodded slowly, "We are on the debate team together. He's very good. I didn't know he was so into music, though." My eyes left his as I looked towards Tse's side of the room. I felt Will's warm large finger on my cheek and he turned my face back to his. I held my breath and closed my eyes, waiting for his lips to touch mine. My hands were in my lap and one second passed then two and I opened my eyes to find him staring at me. My eyes widened. Did I have something on my face? I started to pull away and his large arm wrapped around my back and pulled me against his large chest as he pressed his lips to mine. Flickers of electricity traveled from our mouths straight to the spot between my legs. Before I my eyes closed I saw sparks of purple shooting from him.

  I moaned softly as his kisses intensified, his grip around my back grew tighter and it felt like he was trying to consume me, to make me one with his body and while I was all for that I was freaking out a little. I whimpered and pushed at his chest to get his lips
to leave mine. "Will!" He followed my lips and crushed them again. His other arm went around me and held me tight, it was getting hard to breathe. In a way it was super hot and in another way it was super scary. Was I going to die kissing this man? Was my first kiss going to be lethal? No way. I pushed at his chest again and when he didn't relent I bit his tongue. He moaned and gripped my hair. Shit! He was turned on by that.

  I felt my hands weaken on his chest and he pulled back, laying me on his bed before reaching down for his pants, undoing them quickly. I gasped for air and put my hands up. "Will! Please, stop! I'm not ready for that!" He either didn't hear me or didn't care. His large body was over mine again, his lips pressed to mine. I felt his fingers on my jeans and he was popping the button quicker than I could've undone it. I whimpered again and reached for his hand, pulling it up. He was moaning against my lips and as much as I wanted to enjoy any part of this, I couldn't. He was going to rape me and steal my virginity!